Daddy’s Day

I love Mr. D so much.  We have change coming.  Daddy had been offered a job in another state.  He found out about it on Friday.  It is a great opportunity.  He’s been in many states, I’ve always lived in one place.  He is my life now.  Where ever we go, we go together. 

This morning while we were having sex Daddy said, “We are one. Say it.”

“We are one Daddy.”

“That’s right.”

I love him desperately, wholly and always.  I have not had a love like this before.  

I think of myself as strong.  I can do anything, handle whatever comes.  I worry about the loves in my life.  I want Daddy fulfilled, I want my son happy and growing into a man and I want all my family happy and around me.

This Father’s Day I will honor my Father and Daddy in different ways.  My Dad will have his kids around him and my cooking.  Daddy will have me.  I will be his and take a deep breath and we’ll figure out where our lives go next…together.

Bear With Me

Good evening from another country.  I am traveling with a friend and haven’t been able to write at all. Stories and thoughts go running through my mind but there they’ve stayed. 

My traveling partner is a very uptight man who needs help relaxing and going with the flow.  I take deep breaths each day to hold my patience in place and help him enjoy this trip.  I’m enjoying all I can of it but feeling someone else’s stress all the time is tiring. 

I have my phone to post or write so now that the most stressful section of the trip is through perhaps I can write more.  I’ve had the added restriction that my travel partner’s phone is out of data so he’s using mine to map the route now.  Oh well, this too shall pass.

I am truly enjoying the people in the countries we’re visiting.  I seem to gravitate to anyone who will talk to me to fill in my need for human contact.  I am missing Daddy and my son so much right now.  It’s another week until I’m home then more until I can be with Daddy privately.  Ugh

I feel like the lions in those videos where they meet their savior human after many years.  I just want to rub myself self all over Daddy marking him as mine again.  I ache for him so badly.