Hi Kinky Folks,

Funny thing about saying I’d be back to fill you in on my life. It took me a long while to get back. A year, in fact.

My hubby and Dominant, Mr D, died suddenly. A year ago, we seemed like we were getting through the pandemic fairly well. He was working from home, I was working in the office with much less staff. Life was slower and we were working on our health. He lost 73 lbs and I was really proud of his progress. He had taken a 20 mile bike ride with friends over the weekend. While I was at work I got a call from a police officer who found him fallen on a bike path in town. I had kissed him goodbye that morning and went to work. I had no idea he even planned a ride. It was such a short ride at that. He could only have been riding maybe ten minutes at that point. It must have been a heart attack. I’ll never know for sure as they chose not to do an autopsy. I guess not taking care of yourself for years gives them a pass on follow-ups like that.

So, writing a kinky blog when there is absolutely no kink going on in your life seemed ridiculous. Grief sucks. Didn’t really want to write about that either.

So, what else? I’m still in school, set to graduate fairly soon. Happy about that for sure.

I think about my life with Mr D and damn, I had it good. He took great care of me. He was a protector pure and strong. I miss that. I feel vulnerable since he’s been gone.

I thought I was good at the independent, strong woman bit but it’s mainly a ruse. I distance from folks because I’m a push over. Working on that again. Ever notice we get to keep learning the lessons we need to learn?