It has been 19 days since I last wrote. It is probably the longest dry spell since I began writing for Mr. D. It has been far too long.
My mother passed away. Amidst the grieving and planning her funeral and memorial, I lost my drive. Not just the drive to write but the drive to do much of anything. I think it was the pendulum swing from over-worked, over-focused on caring for a loved one, and pretty much an over-filled life. I dropped down a rabbit hole of ‘I don’t want to work and I don’t want to do anything.’
After her memorial, the Monday after, my need to get things done finally came back to me. I worked through my desk with a singleminded drive that was infused into my psyche. I spent a solid week and came out with a pristine desk and a real do-to list of valid projects to carry my company to Christmas. That felt amazing.
Then I took two weeks off. I’m on day three of my vacation. I have worked solidly in the same manner on home projects. I had a massive volunteer project that languished while mom was ill. I had to wrap that up and I turned it all over today. Finally, my plate is much less full.
This evening I showered and dressed for Mr. D. The only thing on my plate was serving him. It felt good, it felt like I was home after so long. We have had our time together through all this and Mr. D has been incredibly supportive. But today I feel like I can breathe and that I can return to being focused on us…on our dynamic again.
11 thoughts on “19 Days”
I’m glad you’re feeling better & I’m so sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much.
You are so welcome
So sorry for your loss! Hugs.
Thanks Annie. 💞
EA, I too am sorry to hear of your mom’s passing. Sending prayers of comfort and hugs.
Thanks so much Shalom.
I’m sorry for your lost. Hoping that you take the time to find yourself again. Sending love and praying all the way from Canada xo
Thank you so much, that’s very kind.
I’m so sorry about you mom. I certainly know how you feel. Your ability to come back so strongly so soon is an inspiration. You are a very strong woman
Thanks Marty, that is quite a compliment. And thank you for your heartfelt kindness.