I go back and forth in my mind with wanting to share everything and wanting to keep my very new experiences in the lifestyle as my own secretly guarded treasure. Part of me feels that sharing it will make it more real. Sharing it will allow me the time in reflection to understand my own feelings. I tend to rush ahead in my life, to take care of the details and the day-to-day without the much needed reflection that gains us perspective. With such a new experience as jumping feet first into the D/s lifestyle, I think it is necessary. So, even though I feel that I want to hoard my treasure and keep it mine only, I will share it.